Went to the body world at the science centre today.
The exhibits were awesome, and I mean.. AWESOME. Those muscles, bones, joints, nerves, arteries, organs. Totally AWESOME. It's from real dead human bodies though. There were foetus. Freaky, but it was rather interesting.
Initially only 4 confirm. But after a while, another 5 came. LOL. A lot of people in my small room. But we had fun. I suppose.
Played the "snap", weird names from Guo Dong, Yong Kean, Samuel and Mandy. Haha. Laughed and screamed super much. After which, played murderer. ZIYUAN, CHEATED! Ass! D:
Mahjong with yiling , sufang and sherrill was great. Super fun and LOL. but they left at 5 plus? HKN tomorrow.
Thanks Sherrill, Sin May, Mandy, Yiling, Sufang, Felicia, Samuel, ZiYuan, GuoDong and YongKean for making todat so fun and laugh-able. Esp with GuoDong giving that big eyes stare and during the mahjong with sherrill,yiling and sufang. Those two birds and the hamster. LOL
Evening, mahjong again.. With family. Haha.
I'm super tired now. D:
I know that this time round, I would be able to let go of everything.
Not a single trace would be left behind.
It's been long since I updated my blog. Well, not really.
Decided to only on my computer on Friday, and weekends. The rest of the days, I'm gonna mug. :D
Alright, since it's been almost a week. Let me let everything out. :D
Ok, here goes. (if you can't stand this wordy post, X the page. LOL)
I am down but still can laugh and smile. Haha.
That's how I'm gonna see life as. My last year in secondary school life, and I want to enjoy it.
Lesser tests this week, but many things happened. With a blink of an eye, a week's past. Tired and drained. Been working real hard. Staying up lates for test etc. I guess they are paying off. I'm happy.
BBCC performance was a huge success.
Sec 4's last performance already. Damn, speaking bout it, I was shivering yesterday on stage. During that 'solo' part. Haoming ziyuan and wenling heard the sound from the dizi, IT WAS SHAKING! OMG. Super scary. Haha. But when it ended, the feeling was just so.... NICE! It's the end and with people giving a pat on my back saying I've done a good job. And those support you've given me. Haha. Thanks! {huggs}
Weather's been super hot. Pespired like some weirdo. The humidity made me(everyone) sticky. My arms were sticky. D: Eeew. Worse than the OB times, even without bathing. The wind coming into the classroom was hot. No way I could cool down, and unstick myself. LOL.
Many things have happened.
I managed to make some go away, but others came.
I'm worried, freaked out, pissed off, tired and drained. Mostly worried. D:
People says that I looked very moody and down, but I wasn't. I was just showing the I can't be bothered look.
When things happen, that look would change into a frown. I'd force it back to a half smile. Cause I know frowning won't work.
Life IS weird. I need to get used to it. Look on the bright side of everything and eliminate those bad ones. I've said this like hundreds of times. But, this time. I know. I would smile at everything.
I hope things would change for the better cause I don't want anything to happen. You both are important to me.
I should get down on my work. I'm gonna type out my corrections and second draft. :D
Yes! I should be hardworking already. O Levels' round the corner.
Yesterday's skype session was freaky. It was with Ee Ching, Jason, Jeremy, LiChye and Liyang. :D Talked about the things we saw during OB. Haha. It's so LOL, abd scary. I wasn't afraid at first, but after a while. Yea. Stupid la. haha.
Slept at 3, woke up at 11.45. Played cards with my cousins. Then now off to complete my homework. :D
Looking positively in life.
I'm stopping to think about many things.
In a sense, I can't be bothered anymore. I've wasted enough time thinking and those tears were stupid.
I guess, it's time already, right?
Well, I hope this time round, I really forget things.
Chin Hooi's the 3rd or 5th to tell me life sucks.
Should I just agree with it?
After movie in the morning, stayed at home and watched tv throughout.
Lifeless,
Is the word that represents my life. I'm seriously a no life kid. Haha. Oh wells..
Waiting for someone to start calling each other. :D
You know.. Skype. :D haha.
Finally talking with each other after 8768326540814175197519759000000 years. haha
once again, my mind is brought back to OB. Not that it was leaving. It's just probably slightly quiet.
Charlie came to Singapore and me, Felicia, Ee Ching and Hongping RAN to the bus stop, then RAN from the interchange to the control station just to find him.
Hmm, the letters we passed to Charlie was passed to the other instructors, and James posted on my facebook wall. I can't stand it. I miss OB. Tears welled up in my eyes when I saw it. I'm sooo touched.
James Turvill yo, thanks very uch for my letter, very sweet! I will try and come when I have money :) 我想你! My mandarin very good eh;) lol x
yeaa... so sweeet right!! D:
Memories of OB were brought back once again, this time even clearer. Once again, there were laughters and much tears. They ran through me and it made me smile. That's the only one and genuine smile I've shown for the whole week. Well, maybe exaggerated. But, I'm really happy to see those OB memories flashin back. It took my mind off those stupid stuffs.
Meet up with Charlie was great. His friend came too. She's so tall and pretty!
Well, I'm sorry I had to rush back. XD
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Lessons today, I managed to get through everything today. :D CO was.. average? Practice the CNY songs for 25 Feb performance. I solo that little part. I need to build my stamina. :/ Wish me luck. Haha.
After practice, Haoming genevieve Samuel and I went to the classroom to slack/practice. I learnt A LITTLE of cello. :D Awesome.
Been trying ways and means to get my life back on track. And it's getting back.. Real slow. I need to speed it up. I've got very little time. I need to buck up.
Wish me luck.
I still need someone to motivate me.
I know I'm weak that I can't stand and face the things I'm going through alone.
I hate the silent, yet love it.
Ironic? That's how life works. Sarcasm and Contradiction is what makes the world go round and round. I need to accept it.
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What he says is probably right.
I have little self confidence, and low self esteem.
It's been long since I had such a good and long laugh. It is all eeching's credits!!
Went to Clark Quay with her and Dickie. Wanted to look for Charlie, but he didn't appear. :/ SO left the letters of the hotel where he's staying at. After that, went around. Hoping we could see Charlie. But still..... We see ang mohs everywhere, no him! D:
Alright, so we walked around and talked. :X
Dickie left at 4.
So Ee Ching and I walked to Marina Barrage. SUPER FUNNY. The pig has a spring at the back and it's dalmaPig. The rat's hot pink, and the dog has LONNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG Neck. Haha. Super random.
We laughed and the orhbakak panda. :X
We "Charlie"-d all the way, laughing at stuffs.
I can't type it out here, it' just so wrong. :/ Haha. :D
walked back to ClarkQuay hoping that Charlie went back to the hotel already, but no!
So we went back lorrrr...
Called my mother and told her I'd be eating Dinner out! :D
Mos-ed with Ee Ching, Laughed non-stop.
we are like some crazy people, laughing as we walked.
Thanks Ee Ching and Dickie for the day, it was all well spent.
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Back to reality, as in proper life. I need to focus.
Losing my focus already, that's really fast.
I think of my goal and future, things I want and hoping some dreams came true. But, I would be awaken by my surroundings. The fact that life isn't going to be that simple and so straightforward. It's a tough life I'm going to lead. And, stressing again.. I'M LOSING MY FOCUS!
Things have been going on, big, small events all come suddenly. And teachers still give homework during the busy weekend. This is so unfair. I didn't have anytime to complete it.. Well, probably I did. But I keep losing focus. This suck.
I hope life is simple as it is. Lesser competition, but all this won't happen.
I'm flooded with homework. I know I need to complete it, but I just can't get myself to do it. I feel so unmotivated. Failing my tests no matter how hard I study. And my friends can get and A without even touching the notes? (they don't listen in class also)
Unfair? Well,
I shouldn't complain, I should work doubly hard.
Someone, Motivate me.
It's the eve of chinese new year!
Thanks to those who sent me the message! So cute! :D haha.
Wished a lot of people by sms or on msn.
Some are really nice. :D
oh wells, actually, my brain is pretty dead.
im gonna watch 下一站 幸福 later, when my parents go to sleep, on DemandTV!! keep myself awake, and write love letters for valentine's day! HAHA. :D
No presents, only letters. That's the maximum and my parent's doesn't know I'm writing/doing anything for my friends. Haha. So yeaa.. Wrote them secretly. Heheh.
Sent some sms-es to Malaysia. XD
But oh wells, it's Chinese New Year. Doesn't matter!
Twin!
I'm touched by what you said!
HEART YA!! Take care. Skype soon! :D
I'm too tired to fight those talkings. It's not that I mind a lot, it isn't affecting me in anyway. Well, probably just affecting my friendship with them.
I also don't want him/them to be outcasted or anything because of me. It just isn't worth it. It's unfair.
I should just stop being so outgoing.
I should not keep talking.
I should just stop sms-ing, for goodness sake.
Is it worth making the friendship apart just so that nothing will happen to them OR to me?
Sacrifice, isn't it?
Tell me how.
I know I shoudn't give a damn about those people,
But, I don't want anything to happen to them.
He's my friend. I shouldn't be so selfish?
My head feels so heavy.
Homework is left.. I didn't touch it at all..
I feel tired, energy drained.
Under the hot sun, ran around, screamed across the parade square to get some monkey's attention. Had to take in all the naggings by the teacher.
Damn, Headache now. Shit it. D:
I guess, I really need to start to work harder after Chines New Year. Been just-passing my tests, and I'm not happy with.
My brain is dead, so shall just stop here.
Hmmm,
Take it as he's helping me strike them off?
这，是不是一个解脱？
I feel... Sad, but yet in a sense relieved of all those things?
That's the only thing he gave me.. I treasured it a lot.
Oh wells... Life........................
elated,
for a moment.
CAUSE I GOT THE ROLL OF HONOUR FROM OB! :DDD
Hongping, I still haven't strike them off yet.
I tried. But failed...
Or maybe,
I haven't even try at all...
I think too much right?
Been taking naps here and there from each different lesson.
Teachers didn't wake me up, it was my friend who did so. RAWRRRR.
Feel super tired and restless.
Been quite evil recently.
I guess Dickie wants me to get killed.
People take me as a third party, like so what the shit!!
What's their problem seriously.
I don't get pissed off doesn't mean you people can step over me.
Well, they most probably didn't. But, they looked at me like I owed them.
Seriously, what's the point? This is my last year in school already, but I still have people hating me, gossiping behind my back, even though I didn't do any single shit!? What's the problem man.
People are so fake,
they can smile and smile at me. Talk to me. Borrow things from me.
But in actual fact, hate me to the core?! THIS IS SHIT! They wear masks better than I do.
I don't mind the knives on my back, but can't they just hate me and just show it out? DAMN THEM.
Seriously, I don't know why I would say all those,
I just needed to let it all out. I can't stand this world for being so fake and realistic.
I can't accept that. Hmmm, it's time I should accept it already right. :/
This suck, BIG TIME.
The windows of 4/7 and 4/6 broke today. During recess and during lunch.
Wonderful, not.
Alright, like i said, CNY's round the corner.
Clothes to iron and stuffs to prepare.
I'm going to go You Xin's house to bai nian and Mr Lee's to too!
Huiyi... Maybe?! I don't know.
Gahhh, Just a random post.
Unable to concentrate in class.
I wanted to say a sentence here, but decided not to.
Thanks for your concern, I know how to contact you! :D
Hmmm.
Lessons. Guo Dong and I fell asleep during english remedial today. It's just so funny. "Sexy Man" , he calls himself. Gahhh, he's even more random than me.
Well, Chinese New Year's round the corner and I'm gonna go other people's house bai nian and get ang bao! Haha. Oh wells, I go for the tidbits and my friends. Fun to go out with my friends. Have loads of fun with them. Take my mind of those horrible homeworks and tests. :D
Ahhhh.. This reminds me.. i just passed my eMaths test and just FAILED my amaths test. And I guess I'm gonna flung my history test today as well.. Oh wells, I'm used to failing. Haha.
Hmmm,think I'm won't be coming online as often. Just on it on friday, saturday and sunday. I THINK. but, that doesn't mean I won't come on on normal days, Just maybe a shorter time?!
Haha. Off to homework.
I can't owe anything during the CNY, not even homeworks.
I don't deserve love from anyone."I never thought of anything till so far. Friends is all we can be."
oh wells.. Skype session was fun. And funny. Haha.
Singing and singing. It was like venting all my problems, venting it all out into the songs.
&&,
I know my singing is nice and good. HAHAHAHAHA.
It's fading away with the scars on my legs.
I don't like it, but I have to accept it.
I nearly break down today, I don't know why.
Just.... Hahaha.
SMILE!!!!! :DDDDDD
IM GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
I see no point in coming online already. It's lame.
Suddenly no motivation to do anything, or get anything right.
Or get my life back on track. Not that it's way off track now, but it's starting to side track.
I doubt anyone's reading it. Oh wells. :D
Doesn't matter even if no one reads this right.
I feel so... Empty now.
I'm like emotionless. My mother/sister tells me a joke, and I force back a fake laughter/smile. I feel so fake. The only kind of 'feeling' in a sense is "What?" or "Huh?"
Auto-filtering things anyone says. I can't concentrate.
I'm naggy, I know. But that's all I can say.
I want that to go.
Seems like I must strike it off soon,
Now.
I'm not sure of what I'm doing this few days. Unaware of what's going on around me. Feels like my life is rather aimless and no-point.
I am unable to keep/stay happy anymore.
Those smiles and laughters, were in a sense. Fake. Been laughing less often. Due to the tests? Hope so.
Chinese New Year's round the corner. Not in the mood yet. Dang.
I'm dreading for everything to happen, esp _______ .
I seriously find myself so stupid lor. BEing afraid of this and that. That was just probably trying to cover up other of my emotions. Laughter is the best. But I just can't laugh now. So let Fear be the best to hide everything.
Denial.
I've been living in denial nowadays.
I need to get a live. No link.. I know. Just that...
Ahhh, What crap am i talking about now? :/ SHIT ME!
I really need to get a grip.
Vicious cycle.
Low to Medium to High to LOW.
DROP BACK DOWN, it doesn't drop down slowly. It just drops like that.
Stupid moodswing?
In a sense, everything feels like the end.
The feeling's dying down,
I miss it.
But I still have to let everything go. Forget.
Hongping. I will forget. I try.
Well, forgetting is hard. But I will try real hard. Strike. Let the memories remain, but the feelings to be gone. I hate it having to wait. It SUCKS. As in for the skype sessions. But in the end, no one came on.
I know that the skype sessions would really end soon.. Someday. In fact we kept in contact till now. Longer than I've expected.
Well, probably.. It's time for me to let go of SOME things. AHHH
I cant bear to la! D:
I shouldn't have expected so much right from the start.
Cause, in the end. My disappointment would be higher..
I'm losing contact with some already. That's rather......
Hmmm.. Speechless la.. :/
HONGPING! your blog no tagboard! but...
THANKS!
LOVE YOU LOADS!!
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Been feeling rather stressed up nowadays,
Tests tests tests and more tests.
Tests during the CNY period. Tests, 1 and a half weeks staright, with no breaks. Except for the weekends. but the weekends are for homework. D: The tests has made me go crazy. Study for it every single day. Different subjects, different chapters.
I must have screwed up my ss tests yesterday. Tried studying, but nothing went in. Ytd, studied for my history test till fell asleep in an awkward way. Didn't off the lights, bad posture=bad day.
After lessons, had emaths test. From ytd push till today becasue lessons ended at 5.30pm. Sooo...
after lessons went to 4/8 and did my emaths test. After that, rushed down to CO. :/ By then, I was already quite... Dead in a sense. Then practice, wasn't able to go into combine cause they didn't have any chairs and there wasn't sufficient space. So practice my new year songs with haoming. After awhile, went to do some admin stuffs, then went to look for Reindeer. :D Then saw suona out, so wen to CO room, get my suona and practice with them. After awhile. Needa go back and do things, so kept my stuffs and went back to CO room. See the five incharge get ready, brief them etc.
The helpers(sec1s) are so... Monkeyy~ :/ Tiring. Mood wasn't very good already, but I still have to take care of those kids. They should grow up soon. They are good kids, just still immature..That's all. Hardworking, hope they don't pon next time. :D
Well after everything, had a meeting with the in-charges. Keep up the good work. Improve on areas that you guys think need improvement. Have confident. :D
Blahblah. I'm losing confidence in myself. Joke.
i seriously needa buck up. I musn't lag behind. I'm gonna catch up and win this damn race.
I've stopped using prifanities. Proud. More glam. :D
&&, BLOODY HELL!
I DON'T LIKE YOU AT ALL.
I noe you won't read this, but oh wells..
Stop making a fool of yourself. Dont't make me laugh.
I won't be able to stop. That would be the biggest joke for the rest of the year.
Well, Once. But now.. Never..
Ohoh, Mason said hi to me. LOLS!
Studied the wrong chapter for today's bio test! >.<" How stupid can i get?!
Ahhh, great.. Got back from school, bathed, ate dinner and then here to whine on my life. I'm lame. :D
Lots of test coming up. Great! -.-
Today's the... 2nd, Tuesday.
WednesdayGeography.(from today postponed till tmr)
ThursdaySocial Studies - Structured Essay Question
Emaths - Data Analysis and standard Deviation (Supposed to be on monday, but i was absent)
FridayHistory - Structured Essay Question
YAY! Memorise all the notes. :/
Oh and there's another Bio test on eyes and the neuron system next tuesdays. Test after test. AHHHHHHHH!!! D:
Seriously, I think I whine a lot. Sorry... XD
School's been great. I came back to school, and i went crazy. Like as if iI had been locked up for ten years, and finally let free for a day. So I needa enjoy my day out. Crazy. -.-
So yea..
After recess was English. I fell asleep. :/ XD Ooooppsssss.
ok anywayssss...
I NEEDA BUCK UP ALREADY!!!!!!
I can't let my results drop. PLAY HARD, STUDY SMART!
I'm gonna play and study at the same time. Watch me get good grades!
>.<
I know it's late to make resoultions, oh heck.
My 2010 resoultion from 2 feb Onwards.
1)Study hard
2)Get 8 for my L1R4.
3)get into Biomedical Science!
4)STAY HAPPY
5)Never Give Up!
okok, many more, lazy to list. Homework~!!!!!
*Matrices' easy!*
AHHH! I'm bring nagged by my mother AND sister for not going to see the doctor.
And I think I'm transfering the nag to others. Vicious cycle.
I can't stand nags. :/
Tired. My arms are aching.
Was too bored at home just now and decided to play Wii. And I stupidly chose Wii sports. And what makes me even more stupid, is that I chose Boxing. -_-"
Seriously, it's damn tiring. And the computer die die also don't want to knock out. Keep getting up after lying on the floor. -.- Punch and punch. TIRING EH! :/
AHHHH!!
Still haven't study for my Bio and Geog test tomorrow.
And not at all prepared for my eMaths test! >.<
I only flipped through my geog notes. I didn't even touch my bio textbook.
I forgot the formula!
Shhhiiitttt. D:
ohoh,
Can't wait to go to school tomorrow.
Bliven and Eeching's got juicy news to share. LOL! XD
haha. third post.
Make it short.
Bye. -.-
im speechless.
i think im mean. XD
Lots of things have been happening and I'm trying to adapt to the changes. I have already adapted to the busy life already. But, many more things i stil can't get used to.
In a few months time, I'm gonna step down from CO. In a sense, wash my hands of it till the Os are over. I think I'll need to take quite a while to adapt to the no-CO-life. This is weird. I don't like the busy-ness of it, but can't stand it being not busy. Contradicting? Oh wells, I just need to stop being busy about CO after stepping down, studies is all i have to concentrate and emphasize on. Ahhh.. :/
I also need to adapt to the temperature changes.
Fall sick easily nowadays, thought i was recovering, but my throat started hurting again. Hmmm, maybe not because of the temperature change la. Just being sick only. -.-
Do you realise, that I'm like updating at least twice everyday? Something's wrong with me. Ahhh.. Too much time? Actually no, just wasting my important time doing such not-so-simportant things.
My mother's unhappy with me for contacting my malaysian friends so often. She wants me to break off.
Do you think I can?
Definitely not.
I always get pissed off when she nags/scolds me when I skype on Friday.
FRIDAY IS THE ONLY DAY WE CAN CONTACT!
What on earth. After one whole week in school studying and doing revision till late nights, I should get some well deserved breaks right? Damn. I'll try and convince her that I study smart and play hard, so that she'll let me control(?) my time on my own! Hmph!
Anywayss...
MANDY IS EVIL!
We are gonna buy the same design bag, just different colours. She take the silver one, I take the white one. If ziyuan wants, I think she'll psycho him to buy the
pink(bright) one! OH! She's going to sponsor half the price, cause she says she still owes me my birthday prezzie! Muahahaha.
But, I think we'll buy it after new year. D: Awww.
haha.
Thanks Mandy! :DD
Ok, Should stop my grandmother story already.
Getting naggier each day.
OH, this is bad.
I'm still young, at least younger than most of you. XD
