-limin :D

O Level

2010-10-31T06:47:00.000-07:00

IT'S ENDING! Awesome. LOL.
Can't wait till the end of the year, as in the real end. Then I can go and have so much fun and can meet up with people! (:
LOL, I'm already thinking of playing even before the exam ends. NEVER MIND!
I shall work hard for the rest of the papers and then throw away all my books. (: LOL.

kk. I shall go off~ (:

Ages

2010-07-21T02:29:00.000-07:00

Been preparing for my prelims, but nostly fightling off my terrible flu and fever. Throat hurts and nose blocked. IRRITATING.

Been pondering about lots of stuff recently. Yea I know, i should be concentrating on my studies. But yea..

No idea what I've been thinking or doing. Been doing things aimlessly. Walked as long as there's a path, turned whenever there's a corner to turn. If I were a feather, I would be floating with the wind already. LOL. I'm tired. After prelims, I'm gonna take some time off and go crazy! :D

Guess what.

2010-06-09T04:42:00.000-07:00

If i told that person that it is not that person and is another person.
Or if I told that the other person that that person is not the person?

hmmm, can't guess right.
Too bad. (:

Yea, indeed. (:

2010-06-08T04:27:00.000-07:00

I guess i can go find wee kii them on 17! (: YAY!
means, i can't stay for all three nights. :/
Nvm (:

I really wish I can hate you, but I can't bring myself to.
Because you are innocent.
But, I can hate another person, he knew everything.
The problem is, I can't. He is not hate-able. :/

I wish I could tell everyone the truth and how I feel.
But I can't, I've got no guts to. I'm sucha lousy piece of shit.

Another day,

2010-06-01T04:41:00.000-07:00

It feels like I want to forget, but yet I can't.
Yeaa, there are a lot of such posts in this blog. Ahh, heck. ):

Once again, many things are happening.
I wonder why I treat people who doesn't care about me better than to those who treats me well.

Did you even care of how I felt when you told me those things?
It is so hard to act as if nothing's happening, I feel alright and that I can't be bothered? When I actually hope you could shut up about that?

GAHH, it sucks.

it's like, wow.

2010-05-21T07:00:00.000-07:00

Having to be asked something which you are hiding and forgetting and ignoring about sucks.
Keep reminding of things that I want to ignore.
Why are you asking me such questions? I'm afraid of falling for him. I don't want to.

Well, I'm still gonna say the same thing.
Since this is the case, so be it. There's nothing I can do.
Yea, I care. But I shouldn't. I'm finding troubles myself.

I nearly cried for idk what reasons just now during sports day.
I needa get a grip.

if only i knew

2010-05-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

"if only i knew how you reacted, if only i knew how you felt."

knowing those things would be impossible.. i know, but I'm curious.

i guess there are some things which can't be changed already, and that time won't be able rewind and let me undo what i did. i've regretted and dragged you into this stupid shit. i apologise.

the beginning of everything was kinda so nice, but at the end... well, i guess things changed. and it never became the same.

i'm going to get over everything and forget everything and move on in life. that is just some nice memories. awesome.

i feel 'honoured', but i doubt you feel the same.
we never talked after that.
well, probably because i avoided. i guess, it's just me again.

things and things i did. and it only made me feel regretful. gahh, i guess it's just how life should be. and that it was probably my mistake to know you.

To laugh when you are supposed to cry.

2010-05-15T03:18:00.000-07:00

I guess that's the life I'm living now. I'm tired.
I'm never able to make all happy.

I turning into a selfish person. Someone who starts to ignore the feelings of others. There isn't anything of myself that I understand.
I, myself, don't even know what I'm thinking.

There are many things that I want to say, but I don't dare to.
It's either that, I'm tired to. I don't want anybody's ears to bleed.

I'm really changing.
What if... What weiting says are true. I don't want.
It's... just so wrong.

I tired of my change and I want it to stop.
I can't stand it. I hate myself for those change.

No one recognises me, I can't too.

It's not only because life isn't going the way I want, that's why I'm saying this.
I feel that I've let many down. And I've regretted many things I've done or said. I wish I could take those words back.
I think he misunderstands me, and I think he thinks that I misunderstood him.
Look at how crazy things are happening.

I'm tired of all this shit.
I can't make myself accept it.

wishes

2010-05-14T05:08:00.000-07:00

i hope it was true, but to think about it..
LUCKILY, It isnt true. Haha (:

It's dying down already. (: GOOD.
Hmmm, i hope he doesnt think the wrong way.
We never talk bad about you, heheh. Just some gosspis. (:

Amazing

2010-05-08T04:42:00.000-07:00

It' amazing how I can hide everything. As in like.. I'm serious.
I just shrugged it off. (:
Awesome.

I wonder if it's you.
I hope it isn't.

Enough

2010-05-07T05:20:00.000-07:00

I manage to ignore. Glad, elated. Whatever, but somehow. I still feel very dead.
Talking without words processing through my brain. Somehow or rather, it sucks. Yet I find it nice. At least I wouldn't care about what or how others see me. They can say that I'm a flirt for all I care. They can say that I suck, who cares la. Lol.

Stop acting like you care when you actually don't.
It sucks when you do that. Cause it's a lie.

But thank god I don't feel anything now.

Awesome

2010-05-06T03:39:00.000-07:00

I manage to gather all my emotions today and put them all right to the back of my head. Studying with a super clear head.

I manage to ignore all the rumours, did I?
I manage to stop thinking so much, did I?

I was kind of calm, yet kind of afraid.

Oh wells,
I think I'm the goddess of hiding. (:
No one know, not even me, how I feel at different times of the day. Seriously, I've got severe moodswing. LOL. This is bad. Feels like I've got split personality. (: SCARY LA. lol.

Hmmm, i go off first. (: MUAHAHA.
Talk soon OB people. I miss you all!! D:

I agree

2010-05-04T05:06:00.000-07:00

I'm hiding everything already. Not allowing any part of the secret to leak out.
Sherrill says that I'm hiding it by lol-ing and haha-ing. i agree.
because right now, I can't take my mind off it. It's haunting me.

I never thought of it.
Right now, it feels like I'm the yoyo again.
I'm easily fooled right. LOL

Well, should just say that I'm used to it already.

Tired

2010-05-04T04:44:00.000-07:00

Reading felicia's blog made me realise. There are things which are over and that we need to let go. We can't on tight to it forever. yea, maybe can. But, it's hard with everything that's happening.

I'm going to rememeber OB.

For you, OBML.
I'll smile. For it happened. And cry. For it's over.
I'll brace myself for another parting.. Ouch, after my Os (:

-felicia's blog

anyways, many things have been happening. And I see no point in facing them face to face. Fighting against it. I thought I was strong enough, but I realised. No. I realise, I'm already starting to run away from everything. Running away till tears were able to be forced back and I'm unable to smile genuinely at things that are nice. I realise, I'm no longer me. That's scary, is that the way how people change and grow emotionless? Idk. I'm afraid of myself already.

I'm sick of crying, for it's draining me.
I'm sick of laughing, for it's suffocating me.

I want to cry, but I'm tired. Tired of being weak.
I want to laugh, I'm tired too. Tired of straining my muscles.

I want to stand strong, but I see no reason why I should.
People have been lying to me. And things that I cherish a lot have left.
I see no motivation in life. I'm tired.

I wish I understood you. I wish all those you said were lies. When you receive the message, how did you feel?
It seems like you are chasing me away.

It's been...

2010-04-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

Speechless by everything that's happening around me.
School always catch me off guard. Shocking me every spare moment there is.

Shall not explain. Got a shock during assembly today. I can't stand it.

Full of shocks may mean full of surprises. That doesn't mean I can take everything. I want a peaceful life.

It's flattering, but No. I don't want it. I'm sick and tired of it.

At the verge of braeking down.
I still can't accept how weird life is.

Never Let You Go

2010-04-11T08:13:00.000-07:00

Never Let you go.

http://www.lyrics.com/never-let-you-go-lyrics-justin-bieber.html

I like the lyrics.
So sweet.

I have already let you go.

How Inspiring.

2010-04-10T01:08:00.000-07:00

Loads of stuffs to ponder about.
Hmmm, maybe it's just that I'm thinking about stuffs that need not be thought about? Haha. Idk.

I hate the weekends. I eat a lot. I still haven't started on my homework yet. That's bad. It's saturday and tomorrow's Sunday. And after Sunday, it's Monday!! Where all homeworks are due! GREAT.

Tons of Maths and English. LOL. I think I should get started right!?!
I miss Ob!
Talked to Naqi just now. Still wondering how on earth he managed to carry me haha!
HE'S SO DAMN SKINNY!

I Doubt

2010-04-09T04:36:00.000-07:00

I doubt we will still be friends next time.
Haha, this is damn weird. No idea why I'm blogging about this, but oh wells.
Yea, I owe you a lot of things? Waahha, not your say :D I don't owe you anything, well. Depends on my mood. If I feel like returning the 'debts', then I return. If not, Nahh..

Hmmm,
Tired. Seriously. I'm gonna fail my e.Geog test today! Didn't study for it. And, I didn't write any example. :D Oh gosh. -.-

Oh wells, "Work harder! Sure can de la!" is what people tell me. But, it isn't that easy. Struggling to stay alive in this hard and stressful education system.

I musn't give up.
Was bathing and a super big flying ant flew in.
Dropped on to the floor, with its wings stuck to the wet floor.
It still persevered and climbed up the wall. How brave.
How I wish, I was as brave and as strong.

I feel like crying, but tears just wouldn't flow out.
I'm gonna be greedy. I want somebody's shoulders to cry/lean on.
Not anyone's but my grandfather's. I know there never will have a chance already.

oh gosh

2010-04-04T06:02:00.000-07:00

well well, just completed my english composition draft 2. Great. But, I doubt I'm gonna touch my maths. I'm tired. Badminton on thursday drained me ofmy energy. Friday, went to sao mu. After that aunts and uncles came, opened two tables of mahjong. Unable to study, plus. I was damn tired for sleeping late, waking up early. Saturday (yesterday), went out and reached home at 7.30. After that, bathed and all that was already quite late. All the walking made me super tireed, and the contacts made my eyes dry(First time in the year wearing, so I/m not used to it yet) Hope my eyes will not be dry tomorrow. Five periods of english and four periods of maths. Hell day. D:Anyways, today morning, watched tv. Eat lunch and went out to have my hair cut. Went out at 1, home at 5.30. Great. Bathed etcetc, was already 6.20.. Dinner till 7. Idled around with my sister, then started my homework at 7.45.
Distracted, distracted.
My weekend was packed with activities and I didn't blame it on anyone. Unable to complete my homework was just because of my poor time management and also because I was pure lazy like some people say.

I've seriously lost the will to study. I've said that many times, but I'm stil studying. Ironic? Well, that's because I don't want to ruin my own future.

8 Points is hard. But I still need to get it. Is it too late?

I hope not....

Visit to Singapore .

2010-04-03T07:33:00.000-07:00

WALKED A LOT.
haha, from the city area to... the west?
Took loads of pictures. :D

Life.

2010-03-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

There are many obstacles in life,
just whether you want to face it bravely and overcome them.
Wow, inspiring? Not really.
I know I need to face and overcome those shits that come in my way. But I just can't. Breaking down easily. Life's so negatively and colourless now.

It's depressing.

Guess I'm already at the verge of breaking down.
Many reasons to it. Don't ask.

This whole life suck now.
I don't know whether it's the moodswing or the weather, or it's just my stupid attitude.
I can't stand myself. Asshole. -.-

HOH YAY!

2010-03-29T04:14:00.000-07:00

Chye's coming to Singapore on Saturday.
Pray hard that I can find him! I miss him. LOL.

Everything's going well.
Just that there's a lot of homework.

DAmn, speaking of which. I should get going and complete them :D

Tears Of Joy.

2010-03-27T06:04:00.000-07:00

CHYE FINALLY RECEIVED THE PARCEL AFTER THREE MONTHS!! :DDD

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

Rumours

2010-03-26T05:54:00.001-07:00

Rumours've been all around the school.
And out of so many people in the whole level, i'm picked. D:

Oh wells, don't talk about it.

It's been long since i on the computer, and came online.

Celebrated Libin and Yong Yao's birthday after CCA. Went crazy with those awesome people. :D Accidentally flung cake on Nicholas Ee. LOL. That idiot who never fails to be an asshole. XD

im tired.
Studying and studying, idling my time away too. This is so stupid.
Pull myself together and get things done and right, :D

Results

2010-03-13T05:41:00.000-08:00

One word, Demoralising.
Friday itself isn't that good already. Plus, after getting results.. My mood dropped. Tired. I was demoralised. Tried to act like nothing happened. But, it made my friends worry more.

my results...
1 A1
1 B3
1 B4
1 C5
1 C6
1 D7
1 E8

so, i got 1 a, 2 bs , 2 cs, 1 d and 1 e. How perfect?!

Haha. Anyways,
Hongping, YatYan, Andrea and Samuel came and.. studied. But ended up playing. Haha, with everything. Gossiped.

I suddenly feel close to them.
I don't want our friendship to drift apart.... :D

Hmmm, been long since i used the computer. Decided to update lor. Short post, i suppose. Haha.

I really don't like Kim Yew. >.<

ohoh, sports day's postponed.
Sad that it's postponed.. But happy that there WILL be sports day.
It's afterall the last year. I should enjoy and get a life, leave the studying-no-life world.. For a moment.

ahh life

2010-03-05T03:41:00.000-08:00

Finally came online. :D Been studying hard this few days.

Hmmm, I hope girls will come my house tomorrow. Otherwise, it would be weird!

Before I bathed, I smelt of cakes, butter, sugar and flour. Cause went to Sinmay's house to bake! :D Nice nice nice! :D Saved up the $14 on the Alice in Wonderland. :D XD expensive ehhh. Hahaha. :/

Hmm, life's good.
Studying keeps my mind off stuffs. Shh, Don't ask me what. :D

HONGPING. Thanks for being there for me.

EECHING. Thanks for making me laugh and smile.

FELICIA. Thanks for being random and also ready to go crazy with me!

SHERRILL. Thanks for being random and crazy, making me laugh at you. :P Heart yaa. :D
HEART YOU GUYS, ALL! :D

I miss OB. Do you?

Studies been great, in a sense.

I Failed my Chemistry!

Carelessly failed my Amaths, 12/30. D: Damn those careless mistakes. Haha. :D

I LOVE MY FAMILY.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

I LOVE OB FRIENDS TOO. :D

They make my life complete. :D

Fun

2010-02-27T06:18:00.000-08:00

Went to the body world at the science centre today.

The exhibits were awesome, and I mean.. AWESOME. Those muscles, bones, joints, nerves, arteries, organs. Totally AWESOME. It's from real dead human bodies though. There were foetus. Freaky, but it was rather interesting.

Initially only 4 confirm. But after a while, another 5 came. LOL. A lot of people in my small room. But we had fun. I suppose.

Played the "snap", weird names from Guo Dong, Yong Kean, Samuel and Mandy. Haha. Laughed and screamed super much. After which, played murderer. ZIYUAN, CHEATED! Ass! D:

Mahjong with yiling , sufang and sherrill was great. Super fun and LOL. but they left at 5 plus? HKN tomorrow.

Thanks Sherrill, Sin May, Mandy, Yiling, Sufang, Felicia, Samuel, ZiYuan, GuoDong and YongKean for making todat so fun and laugh-able. Esp with GuoDong giving that big eyes stare and during the mahjong with sherrill,yiling and sufang. Those two birds and the hamster. LOL

Evening, mahjong again.. With family. Haha.

I'm super tired now. D:

I know that this time round, I would be able to let go of everything.
Not a single trace would be left behind.

life is complicated?

2010-02-26T04:56:00.000-08:00

It's been long since I updated my blog. Well, not really.
Decided to only on my computer on Friday, and weekends. The rest of the days, I'm gonna mug. :D

Alright, since it's been almost a week. Let me let everything out. :D
Ok, here goes. (if you can't stand this wordy post, X the page. LOL)

I am down but still can laugh and smile. Haha.
That's how I'm gonna see life as. My last year in secondary school life, and I want to enjoy it.

Lesser tests this week, but many things happened. With a blink of an eye, a week's past. Tired and drained. Been working real hard. Staying up lates for test etc. I guess they are paying off. I'm happy.

BBCC performance was a huge success.
Sec 4's last performance already. Damn, speaking bout it, I was shivering yesterday on stage. During that 'solo' part. Haoming ziyuan and wenling heard the sound from the dizi, IT WAS SHAKING! OMG. Super scary. Haha. But when it ended, the feeling was just so.... NICE! It's the end and with people giving a pat on my back saying I've done a good job. And those support you've given me. Haha. Thanks! {huggs}

Weather's been super hot. Pespired like some weirdo. The humidity made me(everyone) sticky. My arms were sticky. D: Eeew. Worse than the OB times, even without bathing. The wind coming into the classroom was hot. No way I could cool down, and unstick myself. LOL.

Many things have happened.
I managed to make some go away, but others came.
I'm worried, freaked out, pissed off, tired and drained. Mostly worried. D:

People says that I looked very moody and down, but I wasn't. I was just showing the I can't be bothered look.
When things happen, that look would change into a frown. I'd force it back to a half smile. Cause I know frowning won't work.

Life IS weird. I need to get used to it. Look on the bright side of everything and eliminate those bad ones. I've said this like hundreds of times. But, this time. I know. I would smile at everything.

I hope things would change for the better cause I don't want anything to happen. You both are important to me.

Homework.

2010-02-20T22:16:00.000-08:00

I should get down on my work. I'm gonna type out my corrections and second draft. :D

Yes! I should be hardworking already. O Levels' round the corner.

Yesterday's skype session was freaky. It was with Ee Ching, Jason, Jeremy, LiChye and Liyang. :D Talked about the things we saw during OB. Haha. It's so LOL, abd scary. I wasn't afraid at first, but after a while. Yea. Stupid la. haha.

Slept at 3, woke up at 11.45. Played cards with my cousins. Then now off to complete my homework. :D

Looking positively in life.

I'm stopping to think about many things.
In a sense, I can't be bothered anymore. I've wasted enough time thinking and those tears were stupid.
I guess, it's time already, right?

Well, I hope this time round, I really forget things.

Should I?

2010-02-20T06:46:00.001-08:00

Chin Hooi's the 3rd or 5th to tell me life sucks.

Should I just agree with it?

2010-02-20T03:48:00.000-08:00

After movie in the morning, stayed at home and watched tv throughout.

Lifeless,

Is the word that represents my life. I'm seriously a no life kid. Haha. Oh wells..

Waiting for someone to start calling each other. :D

You know.. Skype. :D haha.

Finally talking with each other after 8768326540814175197519759000000 years. haha

OB.

2010-02-19T06:28:00.000-08:00

once again, my mind is brought back to OB. Not that it was leaving. It's just probably slightly quiet.

Charlie came to Singapore and me, Felicia, Ee Ching and Hongping RAN to the bus stop, then RAN from the interchange to the control station just to find him.

Hmm, the letters we passed to Charlie was passed to the other instructors, and James posted on my facebook wall. I can't stand it. I miss OB. Tears welled up in my eyes when I saw it. I'm sooo touched.

James Turvill yo, thanks very uch for my letter, very sweet! I will try and come when I have money :) 我想你! My mandarin very good eh;) lol x

yeaa... so sweeet right!! D:

Memories of OB were brought back once again, this time even clearer. Once again, there were laughters and much tears. They ran through me and it made me smile. That's the only one and genuine smile I've shown for the whole week. Well, maybe exaggerated. But, I'm really happy to see those OB memories flashin back. It took my mind off those stupid stuffs.

Meet up with Charlie was great. His friend came too. She's so tall and pretty!

Well, I'm sorry I had to rush back. XD

______________________________

Lessons today, I managed to get through everything today. :D CO was.. average? Practice the CNY songs for 25 Feb performance. I solo that little part. I need to build my stamina. :/ Wish me luck. Haha.

After practice, Haoming genevieve Samuel and I went to the classroom to slack/practice. I learnt A LITTLE of cello. :D Awesome.

Been trying ways and means to get my life back on track. And it's getting back.. Real slow. I need to speed it up. I've got very little time. I need to buck up.

Wish me luck.

I still need someone to motivate me.

I know I'm weak that I can't stand and face the things I'm going through alone.

I hate the silent, yet love it.

Ironic? That's how life works. Sarcasm and Contradiction is what makes the world go round and round. I need to accept it.

________

What he says is probably right.

I have little self confidence, and low self esteem.

Laughters or Cries?

2010-02-16T04:35:00.000-08:00

It's been long since I had such a good and long laugh. It is all eeching's credits!!

Went to Clark Quay with her and Dickie. Wanted to look for Charlie, but he didn't appear. :/ SO left the letters of the hotel where he's staying at. After that, went around. Hoping we could see Charlie. But still..... We see ang mohs everywhere, no him! D:

Alright, so we walked around and talked. :X

Dickie left at 4.
So Ee Ching and I walked to Marina Barrage. SUPER FUNNY. The pig has a spring at the back and it's dalmaPig. The rat's hot pink, and the dog has LONNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG Neck. Haha. Super random.

We laughed and the orhbakak panda. :X

We "Charlie"-d all the way, laughing at stuffs.

I can't type it out here, it' just so wrong. :/ Haha. :D

walked back to ClarkQuay hoping that Charlie went back to the hotel already, but no!

So we went back lorrrr...

Called my mother and told her I'd be eating Dinner out! :D

Mos-ed with Ee Ching, Laughed non-stop.

we are like some crazy people, laughing as we walked.

Thanks Ee Ching and Dickie for the day, it was all well spent.

_________________

Back to reality, as in proper life. I need to focus.

Losing my focus already, that's really fast.

I think of my goal and future, things I want and hoping some dreams came true. But, I would be awaken by my surroundings. The fact that life isn't going to be that simple and so straightforward. It's a tough life I'm going to lead. And, stressing again.. I'M LOSING MY FOCUS!

Things have been going on, big, small events all come suddenly. And teachers still give homework during the busy weekend. This is so unfair. I didn't have anytime to complete it.. Well, probably I did. But I keep losing focus. This suck.

I hope life is simple as it is. Lesser competition, but all this won't happen.

I'm flooded with homework. I know I need to complete it, but I just can't get myself to do it. I feel so unmotivated. Failing my tests no matter how hard I study. And my friends can get and A without even touching the notes? (they don't listen in class also)

Unfair? Well,

I shouldn't complain, I should work doubly hard.

Someone, Motivate me.

Chinese new Year Eve

2010-02-13T10:05:00.000-08:00

It's the eve of chinese new year!
Thanks to those who sent me the message! So cute! :D haha.

Wished a lot of people by sms or on msn.

Some are really nice. :D

oh wells, actually, my brain is pretty dead.

im gonna watch 下一站幸福 later, when my parents go to sleep, on DemandTV!! keep myself awake, and write love letters for valentine's day! HAHA. :D

No presents, only letters. That's the maximum and my parent's doesn't know I'm writing/doing anything for my friends. Haha. So yeaa.. Wrote them secretly. Heheh.

Sent some sms-es to Malaysia. XD

But oh wells, it's Chinese New Year. Doesn't matter!

Twin!

I'm touched by what you said!
HEART YA!! Take care. Skype soon! :D

I'm tired

2010-02-12T03:44:00.000-08:00

I'm too tired to fight those talkings. It's not that I mind a lot, it isn't affecting me in anyway. Well, probably just affecting my friendship with them.

I also don't want him/them to be outcasted or anything because of me. It just isn't worth it. It's unfair.

I should just stop being so outgoing.

I should not keep talking.

I should just stop sms-ing, for goodness sake.

Is it worth making the friendship apart just so that nothing will happen to them OR to me?

Sacrifice, isn't it?

Tell me how.

I know I shoudn't give a damn about those people,

But, I don't want anything to happen to them.

He's my friend. I shouldn't be so selfish?

headache

2010-02-10T06:00:00.000-08:00

My head feels so heavy.

Homework is left.. I didn't touch it at all..

I feel tired, energy drained.

Under the hot sun, ran around, screamed across the parade square to get some monkey's attention. Had to take in all the naggings by the teacher.

Damn, Headache now. Shit it. D:

I guess, I really need to start to work harder after Chines New Year. Been just-passing my tests, and I'm not happy with.

My brain is dead, so shall just stop here.

Hmmm,

Take it as he's helping me strike them off?

这，是不是一个解脱？

I feel... Sad, but yet in a sense relieved of all those things?
That's the only thing he gave me.. I treasured it a lot.

Oh wells... Life........................

ELATED

2010-02-09T03:47:00.000-08:00

elated,

for a moment.

CAUSE I GOT THE ROLL OF HONOUR FROM OB! :DDD

gahhhh!

2010-02-09T03:32:00.000-08:00

Hongping, I still haven't strike them off yet.

I tried. But failed...

Or maybe,

I haven't even try at all...

I think too much right?

Nap

2010-02-09T03:19:00.000-08:00

Been taking naps here and there from each different lesson.

Teachers didn't wake me up, it was my friend who did so. RAWRRRR.

Feel super tired and restless.

Been quite evil recently.

I guess Dickie wants me to get killed.

People take me as a third party, like so what the shit!!

What's their problem seriously.

I don't get pissed off doesn't mean you people can step over me.

Well, they most probably didn't. But, they looked at me like I owed them.

Seriously, what's the point? This is my last year in school already, but I still have people hating me, gossiping behind my back, even though I didn't do any single shit!? What's the problem man.

People are so fake,

they can smile and smile at me. Talk to me. Borrow things from me.

But in actual fact, hate me to the core?! THIS IS SHIT! They wear masks better than I do.

I don't mind the knives on my back, but can't they just hate me and just show it out? DAMN THEM.

Seriously, I don't know why I would say all those,

I just needed to let it all out. I can't stand this world for being so fake and realistic.

I can't accept that. Hmmm, it's time I should accept it already right. :/

This suck, BIG TIME.

The windows of 4/7 and 4/6 broke today. During recess and during lunch.

Wonderful, not.

ready?

2010-02-08T05:08:00.000-08:00

Alright, like i said, CNY's round the corner.

Clothes to iron and stuffs to prepare.

I'm going to go You Xin's house to bai nian and Mr Lee's to too!

Huiyi... Maybe?! I don't know.

Gahhh, Just a random post.

bothered

2010-02-08T03:26:00.000-08:00

Unable to concentrate in class.
I wanted to say a sentence here, but decided not to.

Thanks for your concern, I know how to contact you! :D

Hmmm.
Lessons. Guo Dong and I fell asleep during english remedial today. It's just so funny. "Sexy Man" , he calls himself. Gahhh, he's even more random than me.

Well, Chinese New Year's round the corner and I'm gonna go other people's house bai nian and get ang bao! Haha. Oh wells, I go for the tidbits and my friends. Fun to go out with my friends. Have loads of fun with them. Take my mind of those horrible homeworks and tests. :D

Ahhhh.. This reminds me.. i just passed my eMaths test and just FAILED my amaths test. And I guess I'm gonna flung my history test today as well.. Oh wells, I'm used to failing. Haha.

Hmmm,think I'm won't be coming online as often. Just on it on friday, saturday and sunday. I THINK. but, that doesn't mean I won't come on on normal days, Just maybe a shorter time?!

Haha. Off to homework.
I can't owe anything during the CNY, not even homeworks.

~~I don't deserve love from anyone.~~

shit it

2010-02-07T06:21:00.000-08:00

"I never thought of anything till so far. Friends is all we can be."

oh wells.. Skype session was fun. And funny. Haha.
Singing and singing. It was like venting all my problems, venting it all out into the songs.
&&,
I know my singing is nice and good. HAHAHAHAHA.

It's fading away with the scars on my legs.
I don't like it, but I have to accept it.

I nearly break down today, I don't know why.
Just.... Hahaha.

SMILE!!!!! :DDDDDD

IM GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

Do I make any sense?

2010-02-05T23:09:00.000-08:00

I see no point in coming online already. It's lame.
Suddenly no motivation to do anything, or get anything right.
Or get my life back on track. Not that it's way off track now, but it's starting to side track.

I doubt anyone's reading it. Oh wells. :D
Doesn't matter even if no one reads this right.

I feel so... Empty now.
I'm like emotionless. My mother/sister tells me a joke, and I force back a fake laughter/smile. I feel so fake. The only kind of 'feeling' in a sense is "What?" or "Huh?"
Auto-filtering things anyone says. I can't concentrate.
I'm naggy, I know. But that's all I can say.

I want that to go.
Seems like I must strike it off soon,
Now.

Dreading?

2010-02-05T05:36:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure of what I'm doing this few days. Unaware of what's going on around me. Feels like my life is rather aimless and no-point.
I am unable to keep/stay happy anymore.

Those smiles and laughters, were in a sense. Fake. Been laughing less often. Due to the tests? Hope so.
Chinese New Year's round the corner. Not in the mood yet. Dang.

I'm dreading for everything to happen, esp _______ .
I seriously find myself so stupid lor. BEing afraid of this and that. That was just probably trying to cover up other of my emotions. Laughter is the best. But I just can't laugh now. So let Fear be the best to hide everything.

Denial.
I've been living in denial nowadays.
I need to get a live. No link.. I know. Just that...

Ahhh, What crap am i talking about now? :/ SHIT ME!
I really need to get a grip.

Vicious cycle.
Low to Medium to High to LOW.
DROP BACK DOWN, it doesn't drop down slowly. It just drops like that.
Stupid moodswing?

tired.

2010-02-05T04:32:00.000-08:00

In a sense, everything feels like the end.
The feeling's dying down,
I miss it.
But I still have to let everything go. Forget.
Hongping. I will forget. I try.

Well, forgetting is hard. But I will try real hard. Strike. Let the memories remain, but the feelings to be gone. I hate it having to wait. It SUCKS. As in for the skype sessions. But in the end, no one came on.
I know that the skype sessions would really end soon.. Someday. In fact we kept in contact till now. Longer than I've expected.
Well, probably.. It's time for me to let go of SOME things. AHHH
I cant bear to la! D:

I shouldn't have expected so much right from the start.
Cause, in the end. My disappointment would be higher..
I'm losing contact with some already. That's rather......
Hmmm.. Speechless la.. :/

HONGPING! your blog no tagboard! but...

THANKS!

LOVE YOU LOADS!!

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Been feeling rather stressed up nowadays,
Tests tests tests and more tests.
Tests during the CNY period. Tests, 1 and a half weeks staright, with no breaks. Except for the weekends. but the weekends are for homework. D: The tests has made me go crazy. Study for it every single day. Different subjects, different chapters.
I must have screwed up my ss tests yesterday. Tried studying, but nothing went in. Ytd, studied for my history test till fell asleep in an awkward way. Didn't off the lights, bad posture=bad day.

After lessons, had emaths test. From ytd push till today becasue lessons ended at 5.30pm. Sooo...
after lessons went to 4/8 and did my emaths test. After that, rushed down to CO. :/ By then, I was already quite... Dead in a sense. Then practice, wasn't able to go into combine cause they didn't have any chairs and there wasn't sufficient space. So practice my new year songs with haoming. After awhile, went to do some admin stuffs, then went to look for Reindeer. :D Then saw suona out, so wen to CO room, get my suona and practice with them. After awhile. Needa go back and do things, so kept my stuffs and went back to CO room. See the five incharge get ready, brief them etc.
The helpers(sec1s) are so... Monkeyy~ :/ Tiring. Mood wasn't very good already, but I still have to take care of those kids. They should grow up soon. They are good kids, just still immature..That's all. Hardworking, hope they don't pon next time. :D

Well after everything, had a meeting with the in-charges. Keep up the good work. Improve on areas that you guys think need improvement. Have confident. :D

Blahblah. I'm losing confidence in myself. Joke.
i seriously needa buck up. I musn't lag behind. I'm gonna catch up and win this damn race.
I've stopped using prifanities. Proud. More glam. :D

&&, BLOODY HELL!
I DON'T LIKE YOU AT ALL.
I noe you won't read this, but oh wells..
Stop making a fool of yourself. Dont't make me laugh.
I won't be able to stop. That would be the biggest joke for the rest of the year.
Well, Once. But now.. Never..

Ohoh, Mason said hi to me. LOLS!

stupid!

2010-02-02T02:27:00.000-08:00

Studied the wrong chapter for today's bio test! >.<" How stupid can i get?!

Ahhh, great.. Got back from school, bathed, ate dinner and then here to whine on my life. I'm lame. :D

Lots of test coming up. Great! -.-
Today's the... 2nd, Tuesday.

Wednesday
Geography.(from today postponed till tmr)

Thursday
Social Studies - Structured Essay Question
Emaths - Data Analysis and standard Deviation (Supposed to be on monday, but i was absent)

Friday
History - Structured Essay Question

YAY! Memorise all the notes. :/

Oh and there's another Bio test on eyes and the neuron system next tuesdays. Test after test. AHHHHHHHH!!! D:

Seriously, I think I whine a lot. Sorry... XD

School's been great. I came back to school, and i went crazy. Like as if iI had been locked up for ten years, and finally let free for a day. So I needa enjoy my day out. Crazy. -.-

So yea..
After recess was English. I fell asleep. :/ XD Ooooppsssss.
ok anywayssss...

I NEEDA BUCK UP ALREADY!!!!!!
I can't let my results drop. PLAY HARD, STUDY SMART!

I'm gonna play and study at the same time. Watch me get good grades!
>.<

I know it's late to make resoultions, oh heck.

My 2010 resoultion from 2 feb Onwards.
1)Study hard
2)Get 8 for my L1R4.
3)get into Biomedical Science!
4)STAY HAPPY
5)Never Give Up!

okok, many more, lazy to list. Homework~!!!!!
*Matrices' easy!*

naggs

2010-02-01T04:30:00.000-08:00

AHHH! I'm bring nagged by my mother AND sister for not going to see the doctor.
And I think I'm transfering the nag to others. Vicious cycle.
I can't stand nags. :/

Tired. My arms are aching.
Was too bored at home just now and decided to play Wii. And I stupidly chose Wii sports. And what makes me even more stupid, is that I chose Boxing. -_-"
Seriously, it's damn tiring. And the computer die die also don't want to knock out. Keep getting up after lying on the floor. -.- Punch and punch. TIRING EH! :/

AHHHH!!
Still haven't study for my Bio and Geog test tomorrow.
And not at all prepared for my eMaths test! >.<
I only flipped through my geog notes. I didn't even touch my bio textbook.
I forgot the formula!
Shhhiiitttt. D:

ohoh,
Can't wait to go to school tomorrow.
Bliven and Eeching's got juicy news to share. LOL! XD

haha. third post.
Make it short.
Bye. -.-

im speechless.
i think im mean. XD

my longggg-life-irrelevant post :D

2010-02-01T01:28:00.001-08:00

Lots of things have been happening and I'm trying to adapt to the changes. I have already adapted to the busy life already. But, many more things i stil can't get used to.

In a few months time, I'm gonna step down from CO. In a sense, wash my hands of it till the Os are over. I think I'll need to take quite a while to adapt to the no-CO-life. This is weird. I don't like the busy-ness of it, but can't stand it being not busy. Contradicting? Oh wells, I just need to stop being busy about CO after stepping down, studies is all i have to concentrate and emphasize on. Ahhh.. :/

I also need to adapt to the temperature changes.
Fall sick easily nowadays, thought i was recovering, but my throat started hurting again. Hmmm, maybe not because of the temperature change la. Just being sick only. -.-

Do you realise, that I'm like updating at least twice everyday? Something's wrong with me. Ahhh.. Too much time? Actually no, just wasting my important time doing such not-so-simportant things.

My mother's unhappy with me for contacting my malaysian friends so often. She wants me to break off.
Do you think I can?
Definitely not.

I always get pissed off when she nags/scolds me when I skype on Friday.
FRIDAY IS THE ONLY DAY WE CAN CONTACT!
What on earth. After one whole week in school studying and doing revision till late nights, I should get some well deserved breaks right? Damn. I'll try and convince her that I study smart and play hard, so that she'll let me control(?) my time on my own! Hmph!

Anywayss...
MANDY IS EVIL!
We are gonna buy the same design bag, just different colours. She take the silver one, I take the white one. If ziyuan wants, I think she'll psycho him to buy the pink(bright) one! OH! She's going to sponsor half the price, cause she says she still owes me my birthday prezzie! Muahahaha.
But, I think we'll buy it after new year. D: Awww.
haha.
Thanks Mandy! :DD

Ok, Should stop my grandmother story already.
Getting naggier each day.

OH, this is bad.

I'm still young, at least younger than most of you. XD

absent

2010-01-31T19:57:00.000-08:00

i in a sense pon-ed school today.
Now, i got headache.

Just now got scolded for the handphone bill. D: sadded... Oh wells, nvm. Sms to msia lesser can liao. Hahaa. :D

I always look forward to fridays/saturdays. cause that's the time where we can laugh out loud,on skype.
I miss those days. Seriously. Sitting in the circle, playing double dare. The last night was what really brought us together, and in contact also. Cause we laughed, played and did many silly things. I've lost contact with some already, and i'm really.. In a sense, sad. (gahh, my vocab is limited la).
I dunno why, I never get tired talking about OB people and stuffs. :D XD

Getting busier this few days,
Means lesser time to update my blog.
Sure gonna miss out a lot in school today. Maths remedial from 4.30 to 6. SEE! MISS OUT DAMN A LOT!! And i guess miss chen's gonna start a new topic. :/ D:

I still smell the Ammonia smell.
Must have smelt it too hard during the test of gases! D:

It's 1st of Feb! The 12 o'clock bell just went. :D
It marks the start of a month, and an end of the previous month. New month, New start. Forget anything unhappy in the past, remember those nice ones.
For those nice ones, OB is definitely included. :D

ok, Time to go! Watch TV, and idle my time away. XD
hmmm, maybe study for my bio/geog test tomorrow?
Im a very good student ok! Hahaha. Believe or not? :D

I noe you miss me. :D

Gossiping with EeChing and Reindeer(Bliven) is nice~~~ Hahahahaha :D

anyway..

IT'S ALREADY 1st FEB!

my blogger is following the ang morh timing! >.<

Are we?

2010-01-31T07:05:00.000-08:00

brothers, are we drifting apart?
I hope not. Seriously.
Let's try and skype more often alright.. :DD

Made a new friend. LOL. In a sense la.
Jason. ahhh, he and jeremy together, means chaos. LOL. All so lame and random, they even confused me with the J. -,- Haha.

Talking to Jeremy in a sense, often. That's good. :D
In another sense, Good friend. LOL!

Lots of good friend. :D Hahaa. GOOODDD :DDD

oh wells, terrible.
My condition isn't improving in a correct way. My body is fighting it all alone. I hope it doesn't worsen. Cause it's damn tiring and.. Energy-draining/sucking.. Or whatever you call you.

People out there, if you are sick. Get well soon.
If you ain't. Don't get sick!

(im in the high risk of getting H1N1, cause i got the same symtoms as Mandy. LOL?)

Hot & Sexy

2010-01-29T06:29:00.000-08:00

SEXY VOICE.

TIRED EYES.

HEAVY EYELIDS.

ITCHY NOSE.

TAP.

dead tired,

Yawnss..

COMBO

2010-01-29T04:03:00.000-08:00

fever, cough and flu.

COMBO. :DDD

sinmay and hongping scold me lei! Cause i went for CO and I didn't go see doctor. :/

oh wells. :D

My aMaths test is screwed. Couldn't concentrate. Shit that Fever, CO.. I couldn't concentrate lor. Walked around aimlessly. Damn.

OH! Mason super cute. "hot, short cute guy with 6 pacs". LOL.

He super lol. Sherrill.. LOL.
Rainer appeal to CO!

NYAA is finally over.

DOUBLE YAYNESS.

Sheeeshh, I don't noe what to say. Brain isn't working. Super bad. CO was all about admin. Good la. :D At the end. Gossiped with Genevieve and Bliven. Super LOL! :D

Cheryl Yeo dislocated my knee? Leg? Take care. :DD

Those.

2010-01-28T04:15:00.000-08:00

Those tears also meant that I still haven't strike them off.
I'm sorry hongping. I still can't bear to.

It also meant I'm happy that friends are still all around me that make me go high and forget those for a moment.

Sick

2010-01-28T03:26:00.000-08:00

Whole day in school. Tired.

Lessons were back to normal.

Dozing off here and there.

Miss Chen and Mr Leong didn't catch me for sleeping, cause i guess they know that we are all tired after the camp. Then they teach anything new. Thanks yea! :DD

Oh, then yea lor.

Chemistry, test for Ammonia, then i smell too hard. The ammonia smell still in my nose.? Lol. Eeew la. haha

sneezed and sneezed. I know you hate me, no need keep cursing me de la, keep me sneezing and sneezing. :/

Lessons after school. Chem test, was easy in a sense la. :DD

ok la.

some camp pic?

mandy! :DD

Chief Charles

Randell. Dao-ster. :DD

wooo, I WEARING THE OB T SHIRT! :DD

Burnt

2010-01-27T03:53:00.000-08:00

Camp was pretty alright. :D Cheers and stuffs. Last camp together as a cohort. Even though my class wasn't that high/enthu. But everything was still fine, i guess. :DD

Day1

assembled and bus-ed off to the Bottle Tree Park, Yishun.
Then took photos with haoming, sinmay, mandy, ziyuan and hsien hean. Was super Lol. They were so vulgar lor, in a funny way. :/ take take take. When everyone assembled in the area, there was an "introduction to camp" by Chief Charles. Then was ice breaking with instructor charmaine.

Boring at first, but the Loose Molecules with the class was hilarious. Gripping on to anyone when you are chased by...........

hahahaha. Then after lunch went to play "amazing race", tired. My knees are aching now. -,- ok, then ran/walk from this area to another. FAR FAR AWAY YOU KNOW! Lol. Came back to camp, then ate dinner. Insructor Deborah taught us the song "linger on".. then night activity. :D Fun playing with candles.

Then bathed and went to sleep. Sleeping was terrible, cold and didn't take my jacket out. :/ so was like, every half an hour, i'll wake up until i slept under mandy's sleeping bag.

Day 2

Woke up, packed up, washed up then went to gather.

Breakfast then went for our activities already. Run around the whole park in circles and solved IQ test. Tiring and the sun was scorching. After that was lunch and then water activity.

We were supposed to finish the obstacles to get our items to build a raft. Fun and tiring and dehydrating. LOL. Pespired a lot and drank a lot of water. After all the obstacles, we made way to the pond. :D Build a raft and took turns in pairs to go across. :D Fun like what la. :D The water so cooling. Jumped in and enjoyed the cooling water, So walked through with mandy S-L-O-W-L-Y....

Had relay competition with other classes. :/ Lost in a sense. LOL.then had campfire prep. Opened shower and then dinner. After dinner, the last 10 minutes before camp fire, we got everything, dance and cheer up. So it wasn't that good.... Oh wells, it was a blast. The ending got many to cry. My tears were flowing like a tap. LOL. Thought of many things that happened throughout the holiday. Sadded. Hmm, after which debriefed and stuff. Sleep.

Day3(today)

woke up, pack up. Overall debrief. Prize presentation and left, went back to school.

Then went to mandy's house to rest. Watched tv and ate. Left for school again for CCA at 2.10.. Went there, time flied. :D Tired laa. Wasn't really concentrating when teacher was talking. LOL. Sorry ehh.. Then had meeting. Went home. :D TIRED.

More details and some pics to be uploaded soon. TIRED! D:

okok, so i go off liao. ahahaha. BYEEEE~~ :DD

face is red like tomato,

hope it doesn't peels. D:

*peel tomato!?* :DD

suddenly..

2010-01-24T01:15:00.000-08:00

suddenly feeling like posting OB days again. from day one. Copied from my wordpress, editted Slightly.

Day 1
Wasn't enuthu about the trip. Not at all.

Travel there by bus and wasn’t bus sick. Super happy. Reached OB at around 5 plus? then were briefed awhile, sorted into groups, was in Ulu Sepat, and were brought to dining hall for dinner. Phones and any food or anything electronic were confiscated.

mood : I couldn’t wait for the tenth day.

Day2
Had a OYP/ACC 12 group photo. my group attire was long sleeves and pants. Hair was in a super bad state, like always. -.- then had morning activity with camah and mulu. Activity was Rope Climbing. After that was lunch, then changed to wet attire. Had some Kayak “lessons”, Capsizing Drills and self practice. GuoUnn was damn freakking irritating, kept trying to capsize. )): Ass. haha. Kayaked till 4 plus 5? bathed and dinnered. Then had a briefing for our first expedition. Sea Expedition. Wow, Kim Yew and Guan Ki are the navigators! Hong Ping and Cher Yang are the Sweepers! Good job people. Well, good job to the left and right side and the captains.

mood: YES! 8 more days left!

Day 3
Woke up was late! >.< then helped move the kayaks to the beach. Filled the Gallon Bottles and Jerry cans. I will really remember that day’s Kayak. Experience man. Reached Pangkor Island. Pitched our tents then set up fire to cook our lunch. Had bread with sardine and omelette. Then around three plus went for Rapelling. It’s abseiling. Going down 200m rock wall 90 Degrees. Awesome! Went back, started a fire again and cooked dinner. Didn’t help to cook much, because Dickie was the main chef! At night, had a debrief for the expedition. Then had nightwatch. (: Met new people. Kevin, Bryan, Zhi Yuan and Chye(his existence). I was damn afraid of Chye last time. He looked scary! xD

mood: Don't wanna go back to OB school

Day4
Woke up late and Kayaked back. Lunched and went for trekking. Hong Ping super strong! Tiring ehh~!! Trekked for around an hour or two, then went for dinner. Sat at the stairs and waited for the briefing for the next expedition. The Land Expedition. After which, went to bathe, talked and slept. I think on this day I knew Jeremy. :D The something lotion thingy. :DDD

mood: Tired, can't wait for next expedition!

Day5
We were late! Lols. Breakfast and trekked. We were singing and trekking. super tiring but it feels very together. whole watch together. We encountered problems, we were separated fora moment. But, nothing happened la. I tripped and brushed/hit my leg against a stump. Bruised and cut! D: The backpacks were heavy, but with determination, we manage to trek through the four peaks and reach the destination within 6 hours plus. We were the second watch to reach the place. Camah reached and we started taking random pictures and idled around. Until the insturctors came and told us, or rather reminded us to pitch our tents and start fire to cook our dinner. Well, i helped other groups set their fire and said a few words to chye, that’s all, and i still found him scary/fierce. Felicia, like always was crazy.! xD Nevermind. No explanation is needed. Naqi hated me that time! ): He cut the fire wood and threw it at me!! ): At night, eleven plus… Kim Yew set a huge fire beside a tent sheet. Waited for it to burn, then me, felicia, guan ki, kim yew, cher yang, jiade, hong ping, kelvin, bryan and chye formed a circle and they told horror stories. The atmosphere was chilly. After awhile, some left and some joined. Couldn’t remember, haha. The circle was disbanded after awhile, and I slept sitting down beside a Jerry Can. Woke up, and night watched with Ying Jie and Gayithri. Another real experience, never forget! That place is Haunted! ahhh, 幻觉!! everything was 幻觉!! lol, that’s how YingJie tried to calm me down la. Super funny, and scary. Heard foodsteps and people snoring, shadows floating by too. Disgusting!! ):
But, oh wells, i enjoyed the whole Night watch session, Trekking, fire setting, talking and chatting!

mood: oh no! camp is nearing the end! )):

Day 6
Slept at 5.25, woke up at 6.25? I don’t remember. Then trekked back in 1 hour plus. -.- Sat at a grass patch and fell asleep, for don’t know how long. Suddenly woke up and realised my whole watch was asleep except for a few. I saw Cher Yang sitting with the Camahs and he told me to join him. My leg still hurt! :’( Then I don’t remember whether it was Zhi Yuan or Chye, go and press on to my cut/bruise. Wa, ass. PAIN~!!!! DDD: Talked about THINGS that happened the previous night with David (Camah’s Instructor). Then came our packed lunch. After eating, trekked up for rock climbing, natural rocks, with little grips to hold on to and steps to step on to. I hit my bruise and got a few other new cuts! COOL! (ohamgee, im so not girl la.) Then from here i really started to talk to Li Yang and Li Chye. Lol. Super weird. Then when everyone is done climbing, we went back done, and walked a super long way back to OB! Then dinner, sat at the steps again and talked! We talked about anything under the sun. Then briefing for solo camp.

mood: Exhausted, sad that camp is nearing the end.

Day 7
went off to solo camp! i played with the fire and used up all my 10 matches. then no more matches to light up my mosquito coil. was kinda pisssed and shocked. but, luckily i brought two jackets. i wore one, and they other one the other way in. use the hood to cover my face. Keep mosquitoes away! keep hearing the buzzing sounds by the mosquitoes, so irritated. i slept around three plus i suppose and was woken by alex around 5.40… ate biscuits and drank milo. i poured the milo into my 1.5 litre bottle and added a lil bit of water, then shake.. it tasteed weird. Cold Milo! WEIRD!! then wrote a lot of stuffs then sleep. wake. sleep.wake.

mood: Can't wait till solo camp's over!

Day 8
I woke up around 6 plus, then waited for someone to come up to tell us that we could go off already. and it was waltson. we were way behind time. Laughing at ourselves. No idea why though. Was super happy i survived solo camp. (: then, walked back. Tired! Lunched, changed and went to the orphanage. Help to get the weeds and roots out from the front garden. It would take forever to get everything out. We digged and pulled for hours, but there were still many areas unweeded. Tough job, but i enjoyed myself. Throwing the soil around at Safri. Lol! While waiting for the van, we played with the puppies there. So cute la, they are damn light. Carried two, one in each hand. (: Both had some skin problems, they were balding. Heartache manss ): . Went back, changed to pants and dinner-ed. Dinner, sit at the steps before going to the gym hall for briefing. I really like to talk in the dark, under the stars. (: Briefing was about the trip to Pangkor Island for cultural visit. Then, another instructor came in and taught us how to sing the OB school song, auld lang syne and OB spirit song. Had fun! seriously. Then went back to dorm to sleep le.

mood: "OH NO! Tomorrow's gonna be the last night.

Day 9
Waited till 10 am, then took speed boat to the mother boat, which then take us to Pangkor island. Talked a lot to Naqi. A LOT! haha. We went to an Indian Temple, Chinese temple and Fish Factory. Walked pretty much. (: Hong Ping is a shopper man. Lol! Sat outside our store room and chatted about First Impression and Current mpression. INTERESTING!
After that had a debrief for the expeditions, and a briefing for the BBQ night. Andrew(OYP) and Nicole(YAC) are the MCees, Moses(YAC) and Li Chye(OYP) were the open speakers? i dunno what title they are. Good job all! (: haha. Ulu Sepat were the cooks! But it was Safri who did the cooking, we were rehearsing the performance. Everything turned out well. Plus Camah, Mulu and Ulu Sepat were cheering for each other. We three watches were so close. Love them loads! We sang the OB spirit song and auld lang syne. After that, we packed up and gathered. Camwhored and did many silly stuffs. (: Played double dare. This piggy back that, and run and sing at the same time, super Lol! Then was chased back to dorm. Hung around then went back down, lie on the floor and star gazed, beautiful! The sky was filled with stars. “starry starry night” LOL. Till around 3 plus(?) went back to dorm and sleep at the upper bunk with wee kii! I LOVE HER A LOT! talked and talked then fell asleep.

mood: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!!!!!!!

Day10
Breakfast. Took a lot of pictures. Bought two shirts and a cap. Hugged a lot of people from the three watches. Gosh, i love wee kii! I hugged her the most, but cried hugging her. Oh man, i miss baby(naqi) a lot. Lol, he calls me hong ping and cheryang baby. super cute la he. (: took two photos with my phone and it ran out of batt! damnn.. DD: i didnt cry initially. but thanks to Chye, WeeKii and ZhiYuan. lol. miss you guys loads. Serious. Reaching the malaysia checkpoint, i cried again. TMD! im so freagging weak. -.- throw face!! DD:
reached school, went to mac. eat. went home. used com and Skype-d till three plus. Lol. WTH, i miss those bunch of malaysian peeps!! )):

Mood: 舍不得

Thing's are going well now. Still keeping in touch, Glad. :D
okok, That's all for now. Nothing to say already.
posted things again, cause i suddenly miss OB! D:

:D

2010-01-23T22:15:00.001-08:00

all the best.

take care. don't think too much.

it's ok. :D i'm fine after the mail. Just chill off and get back to your normal self.

Everybody misses the old bad you! :D

what the shit?

2010-01-23T20:09:00.000-08:00

mood is screwed.

why?

2010-01-23T02:53:00.000-08:00

i questioned myself.

why did i want to forget, and i finally got my answer.

It's hard, but I'm trying.

I'm sorry to those who is affected by me for the entire week. Giving that stupid black face, and those tears.

I was utterly stupid thinking back.

Hmmm, talked to Chin Hooi and Guo Unn online.

They are so nice. :D
Chin Hooi(good friend); always lift up my mood.
Guo Unn(my overnight good friend); I finally found someone who talks more than me. GOOD! :D haha.

Think I'm pretty random now. :/

Been doing Amaths. Tired. And confused with all those powers, alphabets and numbers. LOL. okok. i think i shall just go and study/ do homework already.

MUST 坚持到底！！！

JIAYOU PEOPLE! :DDD

danggg

2010-01-22T06:36:00.000-08:00

did i mention,

Ziyuan hurt his hand? No?

ok.

ZIYUAN HURT HIS ELBOW! D:

hope he gets well soon. :DDD

hmmm,

people getting emo nowadays. CHEER UP PEOPLE! only i can emo. Haha.

~~THAT~~~~, reminded me of how much i didn't cherish him eight years ago.~~

~~Somethings are just meant to be, i slowly got over it. But I would still cry, thinking about it.~~

~~Cause i realised, I didn't cherish him when he was still here. I realise how stupid I was and how rude I had been when i was a child. But, that incident made me grow up.~~

End

2010-01-22T05:03:00.000-08:00

January's about to end and it means that i'm one month closer to the big 'O's.

PTM just now. Pretty boring. Stomache, spoilt my mood. Sucked totally. D:

Sec Ones came, pretty fun.

Oh sheeeshh, Rainer and Ho Weng, they are damn cute. HAHA. Did some admin stuff already then played with the Sec Ones, with Sufang and Ziyuan. The three of us were entertaining the sec ones. FUN! The "loose molecules" were fun. Laughed and laughed. Did some bollywood. :D

Rainer and Ho Weng were exceptionally cute. Kept running to Rainer, hoping that there's a chance to GL him! Ho Weng kept doing some weird movements. Ziyuan kept sabo-ing me and sufang AND Rainer. In the end, the three of us kept sabo-ing him whenever we had the chance to. :)

They are awesome in a sense(attitude better than Wednesday's), but there were still some which really makes me feel damn turn off. Oh wells.. Then chionged my NYAA, and went to eat with those awesome CO peeps. Talked and talked. Super AA, even sang birthday song to Libin(even though it isn't his birthday yet) LOL.

Then went to get waffle with Ziyuan, then went to the CC to play. Didn't play much, then had to go back to school.
Ziyuan accompanied me outside the gate to wait for my mother. Thanks.

(MY MOTHER THINKS I LIKE HIM!!! He's my super close friend/buddy) -,-

In the hall, Principal started talking and talking. Fell asleep, plus my stomach was aching like, ACHING you noe. I excused myself to the toilet the wash my face(can't stand it, i fell asleep you see), then sat at the study corner. Idled around, stood outside the hall. Ended soon. My mother met Mr Cooke and mr Lui. They gave positive comments. LOL. Came home, no idea why, but feeling Lowww now. -,-

OH YA!

morning was funny with Eeching.

went to mac to do homework/Nyaa/study test. 7.30, went out of mac. Raining heavily. Called Dickie for help, no umbrella. D: And gave us two ways to chiong to school.

1) Put our bags over over heads and run to school.

2) Run out to the bus stop, then flag a cab. -,-

ok, in the end we ran to the bus stop, and shivered like nobody's business. COLD~

In the end, called Libin for help. WOOHOO!!

His grandfather fetched the two of us to school. :D Awesome. THANKS LIBIN, AND GRANDPA. :DDD The bus stop was just opposite my school. LOL.

okok, so yeaaa...

that's all. :D

BYEE~

moodswing

2010-01-20T04:09:00.000-08:00

my mood's been swinging from tree to tree. -,-

tears were shed. I felt stupid. I don't know why. Been feeling rather emotional this few days. In this week, there's wasn't a day i didn't cry. Sheesh. Thinking back. I found myself rather stupid, but somehow, I didn't think that I've shed them wrong. I'm kinda looking forward to the camp next monday. Yet, dreading it. Mixed feelings.

Something doesn't feel right nowadays.

My mood was totally a negative digit.

Sec Ones came and it went down even more. Attitude, what's with kids nowadays. Damn. Seriously.. & some seniors ain't helping when they made the place even more chaotic. If they don't want to join CO, so be it. I don't want people like them in my CCA, further spoiling the reputation. Disappointment.

After CO, stayed around and played with Yiling's "toy"? Anyways, it seriously took my mind off those stuffs for a moment hanging around those HUMANS! :DD

I think during morning assembly, I must have gave Ziyuan a fright by the flow of water streaming down my cheeks. Haha, thanks Budd, for trying to cheer me up! :D

I hope Hongping's feeling super good now, cause she saw me today! Haha. Random! ASSHOLE! LOL. ;D

EeChing, never fails to make me smile when i'm down. (even though she has her own problems too, we can laugh till tears flow)

Sherrill's been cheering me on too, Thanks Sherrill. :D

Felicia, is LOL. ;D Haha. Cheered me on too.

Thanks to the four babes. I seriously Heart yaa guyss LOTS! :DDD

BUSY.BUSY.BUSY.

tata,

talk with those super fun OB friends soon(friday?Skype?)! :D

D:

2010-01-19T03:51:00.000-08:00

I have no idea why i feel sad too. I don't know them. Andrew, Daryl and those affected. Take care. Cheer up. I know it's hard. But still, cheer up.

I cried too. I don't know why.

Stupidity ,

2010-01-18T03:54:00.000-08:00

Feels stupid, I seriously think too much.

Thanks for those who showed concerned. :)

I'm feeling super tired now, I don't know why also. Just feel so restless. Damn, I should stop listen to what HongPing says. Delete them away.

I'll pull myself together. Soon.

yay!

2010-01-16T08:00:00.000-08:00

Skyping with Jeremy and EeChing now! :D They super LOL. Seriously, Haha. I SUPER EMO NOW!

IM A CHINESE!! )):

Brighten up your day

2010-01-16T03:08:00.000-08:00

When you are feeling down, this might cheer you up. :)
Lame, but. :DDDDDD

screwed .

2010-01-15T03:20:00.000-08:00

My mood suddenly turned bad.
Ok, maybe not suddenly, it went down slowly since start of lessons, but fast enough to be moody for most of the time in CO.
Sorry people. D:
Left after meeting, went to look for eeching, and left school together. With Bliven. I don't know why, but my mood is always lifted whenever I'm around eeching. Her laughters are contagious. &, her letter is forever in my file. <3

No idea why. After Mdm Jiang talked to us, my mood went from 30 to 10. Totally bad. Tried to find J in the library, but in the end had a good laugh with Ee Ching. So yea.. Juniors were *roll eyes*, huge attitude problem.

Hmmm,
Been thinking a lot this few days. Am I really thinking WAY TOOO much or isit just that I'm... Over reacting, in a sense?

Life's been pretty great, IN A SENSE. But, to summarise. It's ONLY average.
Mood swinging from one to another within seconds. Literally. That's bad. Shit it. Refraining from vulgarities. Super little, and soon, I will totally won't say it! :D

Somehow or rather,
I just don't feel like talking to you anymore.
It's good, yet bad in a sense.

I'm trying not to sound emo already.
And even if I'm emo. It's none of your business.

~~Been quite bitchy this few days.~~

"The Saltwater Room" , life

2010-01-14T04:03:00.000-08:00

The saltwater Room by Owl City.
It's nice.

I'm suddenly addicted to Owl City songs. I really think they are nice, and also cause i like the meaning of the song. :D Beautiful.

hmm, just heard a song from the movie P.S. I Love You.
WTH, touching. Nearly cried. I wanna watch that show again. I everytime cry when i watch that movie.

Tsk, I'm not shy of telling people how much i cry. Sheesh, thick skin. D: Lols.

anyways,

hAPPY BIRTHDAY YILING!

Sweet 6teen! :D

errmmm,
lessons today were quite average. I like today's amaths. :D Had fun laughing and doing those differentiation sums. :D SUPER FUN!

recessed with eeching, hongping and sherrill. Super fun, talked and talked.

25th January - 27th January ,
Level camp. Nothing can be compared to OB.
Told by eeching to bring OB shirt, damn. I'm afraid i will cry, Hong Ping's scared she would cry too. I feel very empty without people from OB around, it seems like they have become a part of me already. That's good and yet bad, in a sense. I can't keep living life like that. I need to move on.

Life's been pretty great.
Enjoyed talking to my sisters, esp eeching and sherrill.
Thanks sisters! :D

I need to be more patient in handling matters.
No black face,
LESSER MOODSWINGS.

I LOOK SO GUAI WITH SINMAY'S SPECS!
i wanna make new specs! :D

seee, black looks nice, right ??? LOL

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

2010-01-13T04:37:00.000-08:00

the stars lean down to kiss you,
& i lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
cause ill doze off safe and soundly
but i'll miss your arms around me
id send a postcard to you dear,
cause i wish you were here.

ill watch the night turn light blue
but its not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly
the silence isnt so bad
til i look at my hands and feel sad
cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.
ill find repose in new ways,
though i haven't slept in two days
cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
but drenched in vanilla twilight
ill sit on the front porch all night
waist deep in thought because when i think of you,
i dont feel so alone...
i dont feel so alone...
i dont feel so alone

as many times as i blink ill think of you tonight.
ill think of you tonight.
when violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
ill taste the sky and feel alive again
and ill forget the world i knew
but i swear i wont forget you
oh if my voice could reach back to the past
id whisper in your ear
oh darling i wish you were here.

♥

Rather sweet song. :D

No idea why i like listening to such music when my mood is screwed. Makes me happier i guess.

" If my heart was a house " - Owl City

2010-01-13T04:30:00.001-08:00

Lyrics in the vid. I thought this was an awesome song!
Like this song. :D

Damn . D:

2010-01-13T04:28:00.000-08:00

I feel like a totally bitch. Yes. How could i have thought of that? D:

STUPID IDIOT ME! DAMN!

I should just get over it, and live on HAPPILY , I'm just not satisfied.
QUIT WHINING!

At the beginning with you .

2010-01-12T03:34:00.000-08:00

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whenthe storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

(chorus)

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

It be a lie ,

2010-01-12T02:45:00.000-08:00

ok, morning. Nearly bang into a lamp post! Haha.

anyways, lessons today were quite average. Nothing much happened.
After school went to find EC(sister) in her class. Kinda regretted, it was a stupid thing to do.
&&,
Sherrill, Nooo!!! Haha. :D

OH, during English, i should have said "stupid smelly slut" instead of "stupid, silly, smelly". Haha. :DD That would be super cool! Lol. Random.. Sheesh.

hmm homework! Considered little for such an impt year. dunno whether to be happy or sad lor.

hmm, sms-ed Andrew, Chin Hooi and Guo Unn. :D Ulu Sepat-ians.

Daryl didn't reply me! D: Haha.

Shit man. I really miss them a lot. D:

Andrew's my random partner,

Chin Hooi is my good friend,
Guo Unn became my better friend over night.

COOL. Lol. :D

I heart them. Seriously. The *heart yaa* originated from Guo Unn, if im not wrong lei. Haha. Oh wells. :DD

There are some moments hwere i will really remember. It became a small section. A small part of me, but bigger than other memories that makes up the whole 'remembered' section. Those ten days, we went through hardship together. Tough, enjoyable. Tears were shed.

For me, MUCH tears were shed. I can't imagine myself forgetting those times we had together.

I really miss you guys a lot!

........

to say that

I'm not missing you.

I'm Not Missing You by Stacie Orrico

2010-01-11T05:11:00.000-08:00

Oh, Oh
Im not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Dont know what I was missing or why I aint listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus]
(But) Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus x2]

No I cant be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I cant keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone elses life

[Chorus]

Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

picturesss~

2010-01-11T03:29:00.000-08:00

CCKS-ians who went for OBML!

US + James + Naqi + Isabelle

I miss Guo Unn!

To come to think about it, I was so silly! XD

ChinHooi! :D I miss him!! GOOD FRIEND!!

US + James + Naqi + Isabelle (2)

I miss OB and those awesome peeps!

Sheesh ,

2010-01-11T02:08:00.001-08:00

Been acting weird lately. Laugh for no reason, and then getting all serious within split seconds. I find myself very weird...

anyways, today was the release of the 'O' Level results for the 09 Batch. Good job all. :D You guys can rest. It's now my turn to mug consistently hard like what you guys did. I needa learn from you guys.
Top 3 were from CO, proud of it. :D Heeheex!

ok, sooo..

nearly knocked out during amaths. Forced myself to keep awake.

after half an hour, was emaths. :D time FLIED!! Haha. :D

pe, height and weight!
I GREW BY 1 CM~!!! :DDD

thennn... yeaaa.. english, second band. Mr Jon Lee. Laughed till mad with sinmay. :D The editting was super LOL. My essay made us laugh so much.

hmmmmm... Chinese.. was ok... :D

homework,mugging this few days. also playing at the same time la. :D

Should enjoy a bit before the real mugging hectic school life starts. :D

LIFE'S GREAT!

I should be happy with what I have, and keep whining how bad life is. :DDD

Agree?

sigh

2010-01-10T03:39:00.000-08:00

amaths.compo.

i can complete it before 10.30! Yes i can! WEEE.

hmm, i have no idea why i cry easily nowadays. I see people cry, I'll cry with them. When I'm touched, tears would well up my eyes. I think of stuffs, I'll start tearing.

Sheesh, I feel so fragile. :/

Something's wrong with me. Damn it, D:

Nvm, Life's Great! :D

I still miss OBML && Those Awesome BRATS there!! :D

It's really great.

2010-01-09T20:29:00.000-08:00

It's really great to know that people still remember you for what you have done. I'm really happy. Liyang, thanks yea. :D

Anyways, woke up and had breakfast. Cousins came to my house and Wii-ed. They are stillplaying it though. I'm bored by it. I just feel very... Moody. I don't know why too.

Hong Ping! Get well soon yeaa! :D
She had fever yesterday during the orientation, she's crazy. She needs loads of rest to recover, but instead, she tire herself more for Drama. That's good for her people, bad for herself. [Putting herself before others], that's the spirit, I like it. But still, TAKE CARE! :D I wanna see you in school, hp! :D

So yeapp..

Tired. Still got undone homework. That's bad.. Nevermind. Can burn midnight oil! :D YAY!

Life's Great!

~~yea right~~

Sick of this blogskin,

so bright, wanna change it.

~~You, can you please tell me~~

~~what you are thinking of now?~~

WOW

2010-01-09T06:38:00.000-08:00

woke up and was late for school! >.<

haha. SORRY PEOPLE! XD

anyways. CCA Orientation's over. Good, but i the number of people interested.. Bad... D: Nvm, im sure people will change their mind!! WEEE! :DD

then came home, eat Lunch! :D

Did Amaths. Log! I NOE HOW TO DO ALREDY! Haha. Sis taught me how to do. SWEET. :D

so yeap, did maths from2.45 - 9.45 ... Super woman. -_- Im crazy man. Super tireed now.

Now idea what i'm talking about. :/

Have a good weekend people! :D

ANDREW! :D

2010-01-08T08:13:00.001-08:00

ANDREW IS MY RANDOM PARTNER ,

&& I LIKE IT!

I LOVE HIM MANN!
I MISS HIM TOOO! DD:

everytime random with me. :D super good. :D

THANKS ANDREW.
HEART YAAAA. Heeheex.

damn, i miss Daryl when talking to Andrew,
and i miss Andrew when talking to Daryl.

haha. i noe im lame. Sorry. :D

Random. :D

2010-01-08T05:41:00.000-08:00

wrote this cause was damn bored.. anyways.

skype-ing with Laoge and Sister EC now. :D SUPER FUN AND LOL!

i miss him a lot man. haha. :D

shit it. OB! -,-

I MISS OB!!

all the best mann!!

First week.

2010-01-08T04:13:00.000-08:00

Life's been weird. REAL WEIRD. Dunno whether to feel happy or sad, or Disturbed.

wooo, Skype today. Good. Miss everyone!!! :D

Haha. :D LAO GE SHOULD DIG HIS EARS MAN!!

Lol. :D

SHIT MAN! I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT I WANNA SAY ALREADY!! -.-

amaths amaths!

2010-01-05T04:35:00.000-08:00

shit it. A maths seriously gives me headache! D: but never mind. as long as i solve that sum. i'll be super happy. HAHA. :D

easily satisfied!

lessons as per normal. i think i will go to the last band for english. cause i completed my compo and went to sleep. woo. nice. :D dreamt of something damn nice la! Super Happy! Haha.

ok. Weird life im leading now. Sadded. Nvm :D . everything will be fine i hope. :D

ok, i should go chiong my maths. and then revise geog and biology! :D

people, anything can text or pm me! reply on pm would be slower though! cause i may not see it! xD

kk, Bye for now! :D

wooohoooo! :D

2010-01-04T04:53:00.000-08:00

first day of school.

stomache!! DDD:

nvm, then go mac find EC they all. Raining cats and dogs, but i no umby! D: so called felicia! Heeheex. Thanks sister.

Form Teacher period, for the entire day, except for 2 hours. 1 hour went to some talk by mrs tang and mrs tan. The other hour went to assmebly by new principal. Fell asleep. -_- seriously damn pro. I was sitting right in front lor. :/ sheesh, im sometimes the sailing boat sometimes the engine generated ship. :D depends on the period of the year. :D

totally had no mood to do anything today, lost motivation. Oh wells, must be some blues what hongping said. Haha.

Supposedly study in school, in the end left super early. Went home and idled my time off..

I NEEDA STUDY FOR MY CHEMISTRY TEST! DD:

i totally dont understand lei! HELP ME MAN!!!!! haha.

anyways,

I NEEDA COMPLETE MY E & A MATHS HOMEWORK! SHOOT~! MISS CHEN'S GONNA SCOLD ME!!! -.-

haha, ok. super random.

Strange world, Strange Kids.

Must be the effect of global warming. :D

haha, hard to explain! XD

woohooo. :D

EE CHING!

2010-01-03T07:21:00.001-08:00

ohoh and,

EECHING!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SISTER!

ALL THE BEST!, MAY YOUR WISHES ALL COME TRUE!

LOVE YOU LOADS!! :DDD

oh wells ,

2010-01-03T06:52:00.000-08:00

school is just tomorrow! Excited? Scared?

well, i think my mind will always be on my friends. OB friends, the times we had together. I may sound super silly now. But hey, the 10 days. We had to rely on each other, and survive through hardship in the 10 days together. Sure will have gan qing one ok. It's over, but the memories will definitely stay. Those hugs we gave, "heart-to-heart" talks. :D Fun, memorable!

Hmm, anyways.
I told Daryl that he is hot! He was damn happy lor. LOL!

Zhi Yuan is so sexy.

Chin Hooi is so nice.

ah Yang is so cute.

Daryl is so hot.
Andrew is so LOL!

my new found crappish fun friends from OB. :D heart them loads.

those from my school? Needless say la, i don't say, they also will know i heart them loads. :D

LOL! So lame. I know. Life's been good, for now. :D

I shall learn to enjoy it , properly.

Oooh, definitely using the computer lesser when school really starts. As in, when teachers all start throwing in homework together at once. I've got many things to catch up man! D: im lagging behind!
JIAYOU LIMIN! wooo! :DDD

I have no idea why i'm woo-ing nowadays. tsk, bad habit. Sounds wrong too. Haha. (actually it doesn't, i just want to keep myself from saying it, cause i'm starting to find it irritating! :D )

Sheesh, can see that I'm really outta my mind right? heheh! :D

People, take care. Have a good night rest and prepare to battle (exams/test) !

ALL THE BEST!

hair

2010-01-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

cut-ed. :D

feels neater but looks weirder. hard to explain though.. haha.

well, tired after packing my room. It looks super neat now. Super weird.

1 more day, school starts. oh great.

Uncompleted homework, unpacked bag, unwrapped books, unprepared for test.

so much 'un' -s, help me get rid of them mannxxx!

woo!
Positive! At most get scolded by teachers only! Never mind de la, used to it already! Haha.

im a good girl in school ok, just that i don't hand in homework on time. At least, i hand them! Just a little late only!! haha.

ok, i have no idea why im posting like.. EVERYDAY. super bored i guess.

i find myself.. Very LAME! -,- haha

weeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2010-01-01T04:25:00.000-08:00

rotting. still rotting. how sad can i get? Lol.

ok, life's great.

thanks for all the sms-es that you guys have sent! Thanks. i couldn't send it out. Lines were jammed up! D: super sad. Lol. So yeap, sorry i didn't send much out. xD

woo!
Happy New Year,

Hongping, Felicia, Ee Ching, Jiade, Zhi Yuan, Li Yang, Li Chye, Anish, Naqi, Wee Kii, Daryl, Andrew, Chin Hooi, Bryan, Kevin, Guo Unn, Kwok Han, Nicholas, Ying Jie, Dickie, Cher Yang, Guan Ki, Kim Yew, Waltson.

Sherrill, Sin May, Mandy, Sufang, Haoming, Ziyuan, Wei Ting, Libin, Joanne, Min Xuan, Dave, Samuel Chin, Hsien Hean, Yong Yao, Kheng Yuan.

Samuel Yap, Irfan, Insyirah, Sherry.

Seuk Jia.
Thanks for dropping by and wishing me a Happy New Year!

All the best! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :DD

it's only 8.39pm, still got 3hrs21mins before 1st Jan ends. :D

stay happy and laugh all the time. :D

stay positive and be optimistic.

stay cheerful and believe that everything will work out fine.

Thanks for the times we spent together, people.

I'll look forward for more times in the future. :D

Happy studying, happy living, happy enjoying, happy playing! :D

Look! This post is full of Smiles! :DDD

LOVE YOU ALL ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

at long last !

2010-01-01T01:41:00.000-08:00

i changed the skin. looks ~~a little~~ quite bright, but oh wells.

SQUINT IF YOU CAN'T SEE WELL!!! lols.

breakfast with OB peeps on 4th Jan, can't wait! :D

7am at Mac! Woo!

this few days/weeks have been eating a lot! I dunno why too. :/

well.. today's the first day of the year, and all i'm doing is eat , watching tv and using the computer.

i can't write in order, the points keep jumping around.

woo! Daryl's Hot!

haha, got super random ytd on skype.

&&, was rather pissed? :/ :@

Reflections

2009-12-31T09:09:00.002-08:00

Something's wrong with blogger. It's already 1 January 2010, but blogger still says it's 31st December! haha.

anyway.
In 2009, many things have happened. I've learnt a lot. Been through many things and gained lots of experience.
Get shocked and made many new friends/brothers/sisters! haha.
Be in situations and sleeping late.

Wow~ Combo. But i enjoyed it.
Seriously, year 2009 had been memorable.
Much memories. Happy, sad, depressing? oh wells.
At least for now, im happy that there things that i remember in yr2009. :D

Memories to be kept.

somthing

2009-12-31T09:09:00.001-08:00

Countdown!

2009-12-31T07:44:00.000-08:00

30 Dec, was the CO night. So Embarrassing!!!!! haha.
ok, everything was kinda done last minute. Was also my own fault la. :D HAHA.

then was the camp. i DIDNT sleep at all!Tired! i slept on the bus back home. Haha, then came home.. Eat bathed and sleep. Then eat change and went hongkah's countdown! Damn high. :DD

countdown with ah Yang and chye. lols. Fun!

damn that , bloody pissed .

2009-12-29T02:44:00.000-08:00

everything's so screwed. attitude sucked.
no sense of urgency. super What the Heck.
screw them condemn them. they are so useless and they think that they are everything. What the Heaven!

I think i'm getting more and more easily irritated nowadays. Be it because it's just the weather, moodswing or things that are happening around me,
It suck.

I really hate losing my temper. Spoils my mood for the rest of the day already and what makes it worse, I can't go back to my crazy/random mood. Which makes me feel more relaxed. Losing my temper makes me feel very.... Negative. Easily stressed up.
I've shagged myself just for the CO night, and people ain't cooperating still. Imagine, if anything crops up, it would be my/the chairman's fault and those who didn't cooperate gets off with it.
oh wells, chairman. A few more months and I'm gonna step down. Elated.

Did the emcee script till 3 plus and then slept at 4. Tired. Woke up at 8.15 and was late. Thank goodness the members were understanding to know why i'm late. Otherwise, i will explode or break down. Need to tolerate so much shit, wow. It would totally suck man.

Actually wanted to have lunch and slack around with my cousin. But, the photo taking session took up his lunch time and by the time we were released. He already continued with his work already. Sorry WX! but anyways, lunched at mos burger with Yiling, Sherrill, Felicia and Ee Ching! :DD After so much food, I could still eat a subway cookie! Damn, I should have bought more!! I could still put a lot more food inside. Haha.

oooh! Photos taken, Upload later!

Disappointed.
不自动。No self-discipline.
What shit is that?

oh shoosh ,

2009-12-28T08:15:00.000-08:00

seriously man, im Tired~
but there's this emcee script to do. im stuck there lor. it's like... i don't know what to write. -.- damn.

stupid me!
stupid emcees.
stupid teachers.

can't they get someone else to do the damn job?!?!?!
damn, i feel so vulgar. XD so chor lor DD: haha
nvm, i should end here and get back to business. -,-

super bad day.
many things incomplete, and they are supposed to be completed by me. Great!
我不是铁打的。
my neck/shoulder is aching again!!! Damn!
so pain mann. cant stand it.
>.<

hmm,
seriously, someday, i should quit whining. Im so irritated by myself. WtHeaven la.
Libin's sending me crap messages. Isn't helping at all. Making me even more pissed off.
damn, im wasting my time sms-ing that ass, and updating this damn blog.
Damn my life man. No free time for myself. Ass!

wow ....

2009-12-28T03:23:00.000-08:00

tired tired tired. stressed stressed stressed.
everything, is back.

things to Re-do. what the heck. teachers ain't co-operating with each other. and it all ends up my fault again. WTH. -.-
nvm, just do everything and get everything over and done with.

Damn.
-emcee script
-games
-nonsense!

wish me luck ppl. -.-

oh great ,

2009-12-27T05:25:00.001-08:00

Life is in a mess now.

ohoh,
Happy Birthday Li Chye! All the best brother! :DD

Blue - You make me wanna

2009-12-26T04:00:00.000-08:00

To start it off I know you know me
To come to think of it, it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That's why I am here, I'm writing this song.
To tell the truth you know I have been hurting all along,
Someway let me know, you want me girl.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Baby that's why...

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
And baby that's why...

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

I'll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out.
Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we'll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you've never know before
We're gonna make love all night.

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

oh ~ !

2009-12-25T22:52:00.000-08:00

many things have happened.
memories are kept close and tight.
Lichye, jiayou ah!
it would really be challenging. Must stand strong!!
&&, i got make you reflect on yourself? what i do.

hmm, anyways. yesterday i went to sleep at 1 plus. But, woke up at 2.45 by a horrible nightmare. AHH! GROSS DISGUSTING and SCARY! nearly cry mann! :X
first time nightmare, don't dare sleep back...
so on my computer and talked awhile till 3 plus. Then rolled around and finally slept at 4.10. Woke up at 11.20. haha, first time sleep so long. :D super energetic now.

oh wells, the weather is getting weirder.
weird things has been going around me nowadays. :/
I'm probably thinking too much! tskkk...

and i realised,
i get teary very easily after OB. D:

神话 - endless love

2009-12-25T22:40:00.001-08:00

yeaaa, haha. :D
with the lyrics.

i like this song and the movie! weeee. :D

reach out and grab the chance ,

2009-12-25T15:21:00.000-08:00

well, tired !
been complaining that im tired, but not taking any action to charge my batteries. LOL!
skyped till 5 plus and then slept around 6 plus, woke up at 9.15. SO EARLY CAN!!!

super sleepy now. haha.
i can't stand my room being messy, but im lazy to pack it! super contradicting can! -,- but, then again... it'll somehow go back being neat, with everything stacked neatly. but i wouldn't be able to find my things. cause someone is always packing it. -.- so everything is everywhere and it isn't the place where it is originally and so i will kinda lose my things IN the HOUSE! WOW!

dead tired.
i suddenly miss school. i wanna go back to school to sit in the classroom and crap with my friends, but then again... Major exams, in 2010, which, im super not prepared for and ready for. Very worried and scared. Damn! I'm being very paranoid right. haha..

Anyways,
Stayed at home during Christmas, with no intention of going out. Haha, like very no life right. Oh wells, at least had a christmas BRUNCH. After that use com till now. I tried doing my homework, but i just can't seem to concentrate. Tried drinking tea to keep me awake, but it didn't work. Tried to sleep, but just couldn't fall right into my lala-land. Tried to leave the computer, but the strong magnetic force pulled me towards it! DD: damn.

AND,
Anish is being an ass!!! D:
yea right... FAMILY PACKAGE !
hmmmm, watch out you!! haha.